Really tired out. So many things are happening I don't even know where I am, so to speak. Mother once said that we use our health to earn money, and in the end, we use money to buy back our health.
Ironic isn't it..... But if we have that extra ounce of strength, to go that extra little bit, so the rest of the family can have a little more, well why not?
Recently I felt that I am experiencing God's favour. Not that He did not love me or favour me before, but I felt very much like He was smoothening things out for me. Praise Him!!
One is working one's little pants off. Hardly at home, hardly have time to care about how the home is, let alone making sure we sup together as a family.
No. 1 is too busy with the various projects, No. 2 with studies, and facing the 4 walls as mama and jie are both out... poor bambino. We are all slowly treating the house like B&B, and mama is feeling a sense of helplessness on the home front.
Is this the price one pays, earning in expense of the family, now trying to use money to buy back some family time?
In Mary Poppins, the patriach was reminded that the children will grow up so fast, that the next minute, when one stops to catch a breath to catch up with the family, one realises it's too late.
I hope not, not for my family... but how does one strike a balance with the lack of any other practical assistance?
My heart yearns for my girls, but are they too busy and pushing me away, or are they busy pushing me away?
Am I still in touch with them or am I just kidding myself? Am I un-nerved purely because I am a control freak?
Am I?
Lord, watch over them please as I fail to be there.
You know, I think I have come to a point Where the notion of having a guy In my life is nice But when the rubber hits the road I'm very likely 2 tell him To take a hike.
Perhaps I have not met the One He has prepared for me yet Perhaps, like Sara, I was helping God along With my own efforts
Oh God Forbid!!!! The result was disastrous May I never NEVER try that Lord, slap me if that was Exactly what I did...
I do like to be able to Hold a decent mature Conversation with people.
Met this guy recently, Nice, darn handsome, Tall too But he is really coming on Too strong, Too soon...
C'mon, we've only known each other less than 2 weeks & he wants to marry me?
When I told him to go slow, Take time to know me & my family He got upset & said I was playing with his feelings
That he didn't have Time to waste at his age & "if you like something Go get it, don't waste time"...
Whatever lah! As if relationships Are like 3-in-1 coffee All you need is hot water.
Grown man Yet throwing a tantrum Like a 3 yr old...Sigh.... Oh well
Thought it was too good To be True.. & it was.
But that really got me thinking May be I have gone beyond the Need for a man...
I need a companion Who is willing to take time to Know me, love me Understand me
As I updated the friends, it suddenly dawned on me I have much to update!
I am so proud of them!
They have such Eventful lives that Seriously, I am Having a tough time to catch up myself!
Let's start with No. 2 She's sec 3, 3rd form, 9th grade whatever you call it.
By sheer hard work and Dogged determination, She got into A Maths class.
So what's so great about that? Hmmm, considering tuition is the norm No. 2 only had tuition for, like, a year.
Before term 2 was over, She was on her own So it is her effort That paid off.
On top of that, she is a great photographer. She is good. My colleague commended her for her arty shots. With a DSLR, I am sure She would soar to greater heights.... hehe
Oh, she is pretty accomplished as a Sketch artist. That, I have to give credit to Paternal genes... I can't draw a straight line with a ruler =)
& if she felt like it She could draw some cute cartoons too!
She also has an innate sense of rhythm... Been playing drums since 12, All she needs is to get beyond herself and start playing with a band!
Then, there is my no. 1... She's studying her associate degree Singing, Acting, In assembly shows Other projects That take her fancy....
& on her way to various places, Composes a song or two.
One may say I am Measuring her ability / success by the fact that she is 'working'.... and that there are people who are also working at the same age.
That, I beg to differ, for I am merely looking at the fact that She is doing all the things that She loves Packing her days That shames even working adults At an age where Her peers might still be Groping for directions In their lives.
Someone commented that She is doing everything he is aspiring to do Still, at the age of 21...
My baby no. 1 has just turned 17.
Did I say I am so proud of my girls? Well, I am, and I am not Afraid to admit it...
I read about this man once He was celebrating his 40 years of marriage.
In this day of high rate divorce, One young man couldn't resist the opportunity of asking him how he had coped.
This guy's answer will blow you away... He said.. "I have been so hen-pecked all my life My wife, even before we were married Would get upset with my talking with other girls
She would screen my calls.... But I am too scared to break away from the relationship
Too scared not to marry her Now, Too scared to get a divorce."
That is just so sad so .... What can I say?
What a way to have your life?! I don't suggest one sleeps around till one finds the best partner in bed that is just an excuse for being promiscuous
But if one doesn't have A life outside of the relationship one will suffocate the other...
quoting the young man... "I'd rather be a monk...."
Quite so, my friend, quite so
If you really want to Look at it positively This old guy really had Patience.
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