I am feeling so lousily miserable It's depressing even trying to analyse it..
Here I was, telling everyone I was pleased to have the weekend All to myself That I would not have the empty nest syndrome
Yet, suddenly I felt really really... aimless
Wierd huh?
You see I still can't believe that I am actually feeling the Pangs of coming back to an empty home
I think I am quite ok with it... Perhaps it was because I received my exam results and found out that I have to retake one of the subjects that totally deflated me today.
Yes, I think I was deflated more than miserable.
I came away from the exam thinking I managed to grasp the principles of what we learnt and that I had applied it appropriately
Obviously not
I hate to have to retake as well as studying for the 2 new modules on top of the course work & assignments
ARRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!
Then I realised that I don't have anyone at home to talk it over with.....
All these kinda overshadowed the fact that I passed and did quite well for the other subject
Isn't it strange that we always seem to focus on the negatives - to try to rectify them rather than rejoicing in what one has achieved?
Yes I am pleased with what I have achieved...
I will get over the misery of failing the other & move on to face the re-take... & the other assignments & exams.....
My recent 'twisted' event helped me to observe somethings I might not have the opportunity to otherwise...
I was waiting for a cab after seeing the doc. To go to get an x-ray done for that wretched ankle of mine as the doc wanted to rule out "compression fracture"
So I stood at the road side walking stick and all waiting for a cab... And waited I did....
I noticed a few people who started to walk past to get in front of me and yup you got it... They started flagging for a taxi...
It would have been more bearable had it not been near noon and I was still in pain
Then, a scraggly old man approached me and suggested I crossed the lane to catch cabs coming out from the car park He stood in the middle of the road So that vehicles would stop to let me waddle across
I asked him if he was waiting for a cab like I was... He said in his croaky voice that he had 'nothing to do' Saw how long I had waited & decided to help....
What a guy, man what a guy!
Then, even as we were trying to catch the attention of any cabs coming at all directions, none stopping, a lady of Indian origin (no offense people, just stating facts) stood couple of steps behind me, in the shade, near the curb...
and, would you believe it, tried to flag a cab that was coming out of the car park
I kid you not
That was the last straw.... I turned and asked her Would she have liked it If I did the same to her Given that I have been trying to get a blinking cab for that much longer Putting aside the fact that I was in 'need'?
Her answer? "Oh sorry sorry, i didn't see you!!!" I mean..... o.0" Whatever la.... I was too stunned for words
That cab was on call, so was available to neither of us.
Thankfully, the kindness of the old man paid off.... He flagged down a cab for me
Help comes in different forms Angels in different shapes and sizes & they don't always necessarily come in suits or decent clothing....
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